Where: Chiang Mai
When: 31 January 2007
Three dreams: Falling, Loving, Flying
Last night I had three dreams that I remember. I'll tell you about what I remember underneath.
Dream 1: Falling
In my first dream I am in a house. I am somewhere upstairs and when my sister tries to follow me the stairs and parts of the floor collapse. I am afraid to fall.
Dream 2: Loving
Maybe the title is not right. But I'll tell what I dreamt. I was sitting on the lap of my ex-girlfriend and we are looking ahead as if looking at a theatre. I don't remember what I saw. What I do remember is that I feel good. literally, being in touch with my ex. I feel an urge to turn around and kiss her but that does not happen in my dream. Maybe more than love it is a lust for intimacy what I experience in the dream.
Dream 3: Flying
I am somewhere on my way to another destination. I have to change planes but am very late at the check in. I worry that I'll miss my flight. I have had this dream, or a similar dream many many times.
I am in my tiny room in Chiang Mai just back from my Taoist retreat and thinking about what to do next. My first priority is to find a bigger and nicer room, but when I arrived a few days earlier almost all guest houses where full. I don't sleep very well and maybe are a bit restless since I am
Explanation dream 1 & 3
Dream 1 and 3 are pretty straightforward I think. Both are about a feeling of unsettledness. One is actually having a house, which according to some is our self, that however seems to fall apart. Also I am already upstairs which is the realm (talking with psychosynthesis) of the spiritual and inspiration. But it does not feel stable yet.
That is very appropriate as I definitely haven't found my direction yet.
In the other dream I try to get 'up there' by taking a plane but I am afraid to miss the plane. Some unconscious fear that I won't find the inspiration and direction I am looking for?
Anyway, bot dreams also reflected my state of mind at that moment as not having the room I feel comfortable in. Particularly since I do so much meditation and practices, a good basis is very important for me as it was when I landed in my apartment in The Hague after my breakup over a year ago. Also then I spent most time in my home and that way managed to built myself up again (emotionally).
For me, a good physical place
to be is very important. I have always been very sensitive to atmosphere
. As much as I like good food, I would rather go to a very nice atmospheric restaurant (see this one in Japan
for instance) that serves mediocre food than to an excellent restaurant with no atmosphere. This is in line with my star sign Taurus
, which is about 'the physical, the material and an earth sign'. Taurus, so they say, loves beautiful things (as well as nice food which sustains the physical body). For me that makes sense.
--> For my anti-career: Making physical places (buildings, cities) more beautiful is in alignment with my higher self (e.g. with what is important to me).
Insight 2: As I wrote before. I am still in a place of searching for direction. That is okay, but it is not strange that this uncertainty comes with some unconsious fears as my dreams revealed.
Explanation dream 2
I find it harder to explain this one. I don't think it is about my ex. It didn't feel that way. She has just become a symbol for love. I guess it is more about a longing for initmacy, love and sexuality in general. Not so strange after 18 months without a love relationship. So a typical Freudian dream, that probably also shows that I am ready for a new relationship. Which is a good thing.
That's it for now. All the best and sweet dreams,